Random

I did my very best to try and give myself a very big good treat out of my pocket for dinner.I do really wish to sit down and have a dinner,like the last time.Though i know it’s impossible now,and it’ll be awkward for everyone who are sitting down on the table itself.How long have we not used the the soup bowl,whenever mom would cook up delicious soup or weird tasting soups?I don’t know.It’s been long these years,I guess it would be the 4th or 5th year,since they decided to go their ways.

I thought i could get over it,alright?Till now,I couldn’t.It’s just so hard to put down the anger and grieve in my heart.I finally know what it meant:It’s easier said than to be done.I don’t mind telling people what state my family is in now.However,I couldn’t face him even now.I don’t know why,it’s hard.To talk to him alone,is just something I’m not willing to do.Even to see him in hospital,I couldn’t force myself to do it.It’s just hard.I know I’m inhumane to treat him like this,but it’s just HARD ok?

Ok,enough of the confessions again.I intend to give up Student union for SPARC.I need SPARC,and I must have SPARC as my CCA.I’m quitting MCD for real.Talk is enough,actions should be done.

Time flies,and it’s may now.What have i been these days?Going to school.Oh yeah!Talking about going to school,hope that tomorrow,i got a place to seat down while travelling to SP,no squeezing or whatever!God bless!