Finally.

Like the title suggested,I sms Louise that i’m gonna resign and I think she know this time I’m super serious.It’s hard to say goodbye to everyone there,so much has happen in the past.However,there is much more better things awaiting for me in the future.I couldn’t commit myself,and I really couldn’t force myself to do so.Ok,I did tried,it failed.I couldn’t help but to give a sigh of relieve,at least finally i’m able to make a clear cut for once in life.So,glad that I did it.

Give everything you got,rather than regretting not doing it.

ok,i’m kinda freaking out about my projects and due dates!Plus,i think I couldn’t cope up with Cargo Handling,I feel that I’m losing it just like the period before O levels,that kind of feeling when you get fuck those sucky results,I don’t want it.I DON’T WANT IT.I don’t want to feel like a sore loser,I don’t want to be despised by once again by my teacher.

Ok,I’m freaking out!Shit!

Random

I did my very best to try and give myself a very big good treat out of my pocket for dinner.I do really wish to sit down and have a dinner,like the last time.Though i know it’s impossible now,and it’ll be awkward for everyone who are sitting down on the table itself.How long have we not used the the soup bowl,whenever mom would cook up delicious soup or weird tasting soups?I don’t know.It’s been long these years,I guess it would be the 4th or 5th year,since they decided to go their ways.

I thought i could get over it,alright?Till now,I couldn’t.It’s just so hard to put down the anger and grieve in my heart.I finally know what it meant:It’s easier said than to be done.I don’t mind telling people what state my family is in now.However,I couldn’t face him even now.I don’t know why,it’s hard.To talk to him alone,is just something I’m not willing to do.Even to see him in hospital,I couldn’t force myself to do it.It’s just hard.I know I’m inhumane to treat him like this,but it’s just HARD ok?

Ok,enough of the confessions again.I intend to give up Student union for SPARC.I need SPARC,and I must have SPARC as my CCA.I’m quitting MCD for real.Talk is enough,actions should be done.

Time flies,and it’s may now.What have i been these days?Going to school.Oh yeah!Talking about going to school,hope that tomorrow,i got a place to seat down while travelling to SP,no squeezing or whatever!God bless!